Ohhhh Noooo

WELP, cried for the first time in Istanbul this morning. I instinctively woke up when my body realized I had slept for way too long knowing that I was supposed to wake up at 6:00AM, however it was already 7:45 and the bus you were supposed to catch left at 7:15... Yuuuup. That moment when all you can think is "shit, that pretty much blows the next 15 hours of my life." A huge group of about 15 CIEE students planned a big day trip to Bursa scheduled for today to start at 7:15 sharp, no exceptions. I was ready for the pre-sunrise wake up, I was ready for the three hour travel, I was ready for the 10 hours of walking, I was even ready for the rain, but somehow setting my alarm got mixed up and lost in the shuffle. It's one of those things that I obsessively double/triple check, and sometimes wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat because I'm paranoid that I forgot to set my alarm. Last night and the subsequent results this morning are the precise reason why I am so OCD about checking my alarm. This is the kind of situation where if you miss it, you miss it. There is only one bus running per hour on the early mornings of weekends to the town where we have to meet the ferry that connects with Bursa and only one ferry per every two hours that leaves from that station. And technically I could make the later ferry.... but that would require me to spend three hours traveling by myself along a transit which I do not know the route, on a cold rainy day, in a country where I don't know the language, and with a cell phone that doesn't allow me to make calls (so basically that's not happening). COOL, better to accept reality and move forward than to fret over something that you no longer have control over. So now what? I'm stuck here alone in my room when 15 of my closest companions are off on an awesome adventure that I helped facilitate... Good thing I have about 15 other closest companions that I can frantically try to get a hold of in attempts to cling onto their existing plans for the day. It would be torture to have missed this trip and not be able to find other things to occupy my time today, so hopefully it works out. Until then I have to wipe away these tears of disappointment, suck it up, admit defeat, go find some comfort food, and start my day even if it might not be the day I had originally planned.